005: when the moon forgot the sun
what happens after we subordinate the body?
Happy Monday fellow humans,
The funny thing about disorganised states is that sometimes, they become a friend purely through their familiarity. Who am I when I am not in an adrenalin-fueled state? Do I sometimes enjoy the rush? and/or do I sometimes enjoy the results that come from being in a hyper-vigilant state?
That was definitely my story, and it took quite some time to realise that I was in a cycle of suffering. A small cycle of around 3 months usually marked an illness, whilst a larger cycle of 3 years marked severe burnout and twice a new career.
What helped me work towards changing that was asking: what is my highest expression?
In lieu of that, I only chased a feeling. The buzz of being hyped up by adrenalin, the excitement of presenting new goals that unknowingly I had signed a contract with myself to dissatisfaction and disturbance until they were achieved.
We have unravelled previously (and will continue to do so in future episodes) the why behind these disempowering beliefs of I need to do this or that. They have early social origins via our attempts to feel enough with ourselves and to secure love from others.
But after that, in reclaiming our emotional sovereignty and experimenting with subordinating the body, we have to ask: what’s next?
And that’s the topic of this week’s podcast: when the moon forgot the sun
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I hope it prompts a healthy dose of self-exploration and continues to aid in restoring your agency. Sending autumn vibes from old Sydney town today.
To your healing 💙,
Jas
www.jasfield.com
